- 12,700,800 seconds
- 211,680 minutes
- 3528 hours
- 147 days
- 21 weeks
What, might you ask, does that mean? It’s the amount of time since my world shattered into a million pieces. It’s the amount of time it has taken me to actually start healing. It’s been a challenge, one I was not wanting to accept. Well guess what life, Challenge Accepted.
I am fully aware that I am going to struggle. I am fully aware I am going to make mistakes. I am fully aware that I am going to embrace my life; living it and loving it. I’m going to love my son so much that he’ll ever doubt my desire for him to have a good life. I’m going to live the life God gave me, to glorify Him, and to make Him proud. God has given me many amazing friendships. I have a wonderful group of people to connect with.
Is being a single mom easy all the time? NO! Just the other day I found out my son can reach the knife drawer. How did I find out? I turned around in the kitchen he was giving me his mischievous look while holding two knives…I about had a heart attack. I safely retrieved the knives, and they have since been moved to a safer location. When did he get so tall??? He crawled out of bed the other morning and I couldn’t figure out what he was standing on. He was facing me, head fully above the bed. I peaked over only to see him on the floor…WHEN DID HE GET SO TALL???
Being a single mom is hard, but it doesn’t have to be miserable. I can take life in stride and enjoy all the time I can. I’m sure I’ll have some bad days. I’ll cry, and get angry. Once I get it out of my system I’ll continue to challenge life.
Ephesians 6:10-18New International Version (NIV)
The Armor of God
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God,so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place,15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvationand the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests.With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.
Free to Keep Breathing 
Amen, Christina. You have developed a healthy attitude toward your struggles. I believe struggles have a two-fold purpose: 1) to make us stronger in our faith and resolve, and 2) because God wants us to ask Him for help. If we think we handle it ourselves, we leave Him on the shelf. He’s a great Dad.
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I completely agree. One problem I know I have is my desire to control. I like to be in control and have everything mapped out. I often neglect to ask God for help because I want to do it on my own, much like my own stubborn toddler. But I think I am getting much better at relying on Him. As a woman who never had a father, or one who wasn’t a monster, I’m so thankful to call God my Father.
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I think most of us are strong-willed and stubborn, wanting to do things on our own. Then when things don’t go my way, I get mad. Then my Father reminds me gently that I didn’t ask for His help or advice before I started. Duh! Oh yeah. There was my sign. lol.
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