This morning’s service at church was simply amazing. I don’t think I even have the words to adequately describe what I felt. I was in a good mood, nothing was particularly bothering me, but during worship I just really opened my heart and prayed. The amount of peace that rushed over me and filled every corner of my body was so intense that I literally laughed out loud. I’m a pretty private person, excluding my blog, but I’ve always found myself hesitant to ever share “hearing God” or “having words” and such. There is a weight and responsibility that I feel comes with that, and if you don’t have all the answers people start to question well, how do you know?
I know because I have faith and I trust God. With faith comes hope.
It was so amazing. The peace I felt. I could feel the burdens and pain I have been carrying in my heart being lifted away. I was finally trusting God to take the problems firmly in His hands and out of my heart. I surrendered many things that I was gripping to death. I let go of a lot of anger, hate, pain, tears, and even love.
I don’t pretend to know why I have gone through the events of the past several months, but I do know I prayed to drawer closer to God and show me what he wanted from me. Well, I am beginning to get a clearer picture, and I just pray I’ll be able to contain my impulse to control everything and let it happen in God’s time.